An Adults Idea

I have made so many baddecisionswhen it comes to dating men in my life that if I had beenwittingeach one down I could have written several Lifetime movies by now. If there is a lazy man anywhere within a 3 mileradiusyou can bet that I will go out with him. I consider myself to be an attractive woman; I am smart lovable and lots of fun, so I don't know why I can never find any guys with the samequalities. Instead I find men that are pure bums and leeches that can't even take care of themselves. It's not aconsciousdecision really, when I first meet them they seem okay and it’s not till later that I realize what waste of space they really are.

So now I am afraid to even keep dating men, I feel like every single guy I meet will be exactly the same as the ones before. I can never understand why it is that I see some really ugly and even fat women dating and marrying these really great guys and I cannot even get one decent date or relationship. What did these women do while they were dating men that made them get the good ones while only the bad ones were let for me? I would love to know what their secret is. I have a friend that is a bit of an idol to me, she is not very pretty and has some really big size 10 feet but somehow she found a rich and oh so nice husband that loves her to pieces. She never even struggled when dating men before getting married either, I always saw her with nice guys.

Next month I am going to turn 40 years old and I guess I am going to be spending that birthday alone. There will be no special man to take me out to dinner, no one to tell me how much he loves me and that I can tell how much I adore him too. There will be no special birthday night with a special man because I can't find not even one in this big city. Maybe I was meant to be alone for ever; I guess some of us are just not meant to be happy. Those lucky girls took all of the love and luck and the rest of us where left with a bunch of leftovers that nobody wants.